Today is day one of a chapter I never really saw myself having, but I’m blessed to be here. I’m not going to lie. I’m completely terrified, but curious to see how this new day, new chapter, steps to a different life goes. I read somewhere once that if you want to see a drastic change in your life it all begins with one step and choosing to take that same step everyday no matter what.
I’m not going to lie. I’ve been scared of taking this step. I’m sad life had to push me in this direction the way it did because I refused to listen. To listen to a lesson and learn from it. I’m listening now. I think I’ve learned from my terrible mistake. I’m present and willing to take this step. I’m completely doing it all out on faith and hope. Hope that what has been promised to me will actually be. That there exists a better life, better chapter, and joy for me that I was so quick to put off because I refused to leave my comfort zone. I needed to be forced to leave. Be told to get out of my own way.
Change can be uncomfortable, but any type of growth can make you feel uncomfortable. You’re being stretched in new ways. Your mind is developing and everything you once knew will change. You will be out of your environment and exposed to a new one and soon you will adjust. You will find comfort where you once found yourself to be out of place. You will no longer be afraid. Each step you take in the direction life is pushing you in is getting you closer and closer to that point.
Today is a scary day. Today I’m uncomfortable. I’m exhausted from ending a chapter of my life and I’m afraid of what is to come. I’m scared of being alone in this new environment and I worry if all of this will be worth it at the end of the day. I also acknowledge my discomfort rooting from me not having a choice in this change. Today is a new day and I’m choosing to step out on faith and take this step and I’m praying I have the strength to take every step after that. I shall find joy during every step and within all efforts. Who knows. I could be stepping into the most wonderful chapter of my life. Here’s to day one. I’m determined to make it a good one.